So many things need to be decided. I wish you were here to help me. I need answers to questions I never dreamed I’d ask. You’d figure it all out if you were here. You’d make the calls if you were here. If you were here… • I’m not sure if it’s the global pandemic…
I got upset with her this morning
I got upset with her this morning. She handled it well, but I ended up feeling like a horrible mom. It’s the fear again. It creeps in to every little thing. Why does grief feel so much like fear? Terror, really. She missed two full weeks of school, so she’s behind. Her on-line tutors are…
I’m sure there are things I should be doing
I’m sure there are things I should be doing. I’m sure of it, but can’t think of what those things are. I’m even more forgetful than I ever was. I write lists and walk away and don’t look at them again. I make phone calls and end up on hold. After being on hold for…
I’m overwhelmed by so much these days
I’m overwhelmed by so much these days, mostly by how much I miss you. I can’t see an end to this sadness. Honestly, I don’t even want an end to this feeling. It’s all I am capable of feeling right now, and thinking about feeling different in the future means looking into a future without…